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Hurt, Angry, Sad, Flabbergasted

The month of February I have been on stress leave from my job, today was my day to return to work and I did. When I went in to talk to my boss last week I could have told her that I did not want to work there anymore and lied to my parents saying I got fired. I figured the best solution was to test out the workplace again and see whether things had improved or declined, then make my decision from there. Things had gotten much worse at this place of employment… During my time off I worked very hard on my Linux blog. I plan on using the blog as an information source for a Linux install business. Providing installations and a source of information to learn how to use the newly installed system. I worked hard during the month I was away from work, I learned and revamped the entire CSS of my site in less than a week. I spent roughly 16 hours a day working on it in hopes that with this blog everything would be alright because I had alternatives that were just around the corner… Doing all this work had brought me from 625 views on February 7th to the current total of 1902 views. Over 200% increase in just under a month… I discussed my options of what would happen when I went back to work with my mother, what if they decided to fire me instead of allow me my old position. Upon going on stress leave I had not completed my 3 month probation and it was entirely within their bounds to dismiss me after returning. I told my mom if they fired me I was not worried because I had my blog.

I have not received my pay for the stress leave yet, However using a small part of the money I receive I will be able to buy a business name and some business cards. Advertising on Kijiji is free however It may be viable to spend a little money for a top ad to raise my visibility and client base. Knowing how very close I am to having a successful business is very frustrating because I decided this job was not for me. My Dad decided that if I quit this job then what little support my parents were giving me would disappear. He screamed at me… If you quit this job I am kicking you out. This man has caused me much pain in my life. I feel it is time to let go of all that, time to gain control of my life and get rid of those from my life that think personal possessions and finance make your worth. I’ve moved across the country in the past due to his actions. I’ve kicked him out of my life to have him try to squirm his way back in… NO MORE. It is time I remove the poison called dad from my life for good. It is time to have him stop sabotaging my hopes and dreams every time happiness comes near. It is time to have him realize that the grandson he took for granted will no longer be in his life.

I love my son, I do not want corrupt television being forced into his mind. He is not even two and my dad thinks that its fine to watch cop shows around him, he does not even hear “Viewer discretion is advised”. We have had many fights about inappropriate television around my son and he just does not get it. Two time cancer victim… Thats karma for you when it seems like someone has nothing better to do than to ruin others lives. The third time will come as well, being 40 years older than me to him means that I know nothing. Advising him of the proper things to eat and do to be a healthy person, my advice is ignored because older people always know more right? This statement may have been true prior to the internet, Now I would not doubt it if there were people 15 years younger than me that knew more of the world than I do! It is sad to kick my dad out of my life due to a sheer lack of respect. I performed service on his machine yesterday that I would have charged a non family member around $80… he takes that for granted. I am tired of who I am not being good enough. Those that believe so can just stay out!

Honor Harger: A history of the universe in sound | Video on TED.com

Honor Harger: A history of the universe in sound | Video on TED.com.

via Honor Harger: A history of the universe in sound | Video on TED.com.

Bird of the Day: Red-throated Bee-eater (Mole National Park, Ghana)

Reblogged from Raxa Collective:

Otherwise Pre-occupied.

I’ve found that I have had to make a choice between a few things I love, Before creating this blog I created a Linux blog, I posted around the same on each blog and each blog was meant to eventually aid me in having my own lifestyle that does not require me to go to a job to live by my own creativity.

Tux, the Linux penguin (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I went on stress leave from my job, knowing I needed to find that something different that would allow me to be some one with at least a small ammount of self generated income. I decided to use the stats from each blog as a rating measurement. This blog had around a third of the hits that my linux blog had and I had not updated it in 3 months during the time I was building this blog up. The numbers did not lie, The slow trickle of views that I had on my Linux blog had overwhealmed what is produced by each post on this blog. The content I had poured into my Linux blog was useful little tidbits of information that have not changed within the many years I have used Linux.

THE GOD FRACTAL (you are god)

What a wonderful Video that really does teach a lot.

Status Update

I am going to try my best to get more posts up in the future. Sorry That I’ve been busy.